Men and Women

Ok, so a good nap feels better to me. One of the major blessings in life to me is the connections we make in our lifetime. Nothing is more beautiful than getting to know another soul. Every once in a while a soul comes along that really connects to yours. I have met a few in my life. That is a powerful moment when that happens. I keep thinking how interesting the relationship between men and women are. Even just simple friendships can have its challenges. Do men really understand women? Do women really understand men? It is a question that has been debated for years. How much time do you spend getting to know your closest friends? Do you know how they feel about things in your life and theirs? Do you feel intimacy can be a part of any friendship? Do you think intimacy is just related to sex? That last couple of questions has been a stumbling block for me since yesterday. I haven’t quite decided how I feel about that. I think it was one of those moments that I need to ask myself. Maybe that’s my problem; I am trying to find intimacy before I even know what it means to me.

Do you know what I love most about friendships? We don’t always have to see eye to eye, but that’s what makes us so wonderfully different. The trick is to learn those differences, accept them, and work around them. Easy right? LOL. Not! But it is all good. I have learned so much from seeing different views from people. It has taught me more about myself than I had expected. All I do know that is sometimes life can hurt the soul, and then it can also be a wonderful thing. When I was married to my Ex, I lost feeling anything for him, years into the marriage. Of course, be controlled by him didn’t help things. Not being allowed to be myself was a really difficult challenge to overcome. Sometimes I wonder if that abuse still affects me. How can it not, after all those years of being compared to other woman, makes you wonder how I stayed sane. It did make me doubt myself. I was dead inside for many years. That is a feeling worse than any pain that I have been through lately. SO when I feel a little hurt by a thought or a feeling, well, I usually can bounce back pretty quickly. I know that to live life is to feel all the good and the bad things that come with having a heart.

I am never going to be ashamed for caring about a person. You can’t go wrong when you feel a deep admiration for someone. Sometimes a heart will be returned, sometimes not….but if we are not ourselves, if we are not honest with our feelings, than we will never enjoy the true blessings of Love when it does happen.