Depression

Ok so it is Friday and I am home enjoying this marvelous day. I am a home body at heart, so not into clubbing, bars, or big gatherings. I Love it simple and with few people as possible. My idea of fun is grabbing a close friend or two and watching a good movie. It is quiet, and more personal. The only crowds I really can stand are the ones at baseball parks and I am watching my team the San Fran Giants. I am a huge Giants fan. That’s what I would be doing today if I had the money….Or maybe a day at the beach by a bonfire with a few good friends. That would be lovely. I don’t like fancy, and I don’t like loud! (Most of the time…but that’s another story…wink) lol

But there is more to me that I must put out there. I suppose it is probably risky of me to open myself up and reveal things about myself that are quite personal, but hey, I live like an open book. Ok, so here goes. The last few days I have not been feeling well. It is because I battle with depression. I have a good handle on it, and no, I am not a nut case, but sometimes the dark moments of it creeps out and I get a little emotional about things in my life.( although, I may have scared off a dear friend) It doesn’t last very long, but enough to interrupt my life for a day or so. I am not ashamed to admit I have it because it is a disease and my brain just functions differently. I mention this because if I make any friends, or even by chance someone that I may date, and then I think it is important to let them know and understand that it is a part of who I am. How is that for an introduction about myself? LoL. I can joke about it because I do have a handle on it but I do understand people that have issues like this. It doesn’t make them a bad person, or even a crazy person. It is just another part of their personality. We live in some a judgmental society that I am sure some people with depression are afraid to talk about it openly. There is nothing really to be afraid of, just be yourself and love what makes who you are. Special. I think the best cure for it for me has been my blogging, my positive affirmations that I keep telling myself. I think the more positive things you can say about yourself, life, others, the more you are inclined to feel it.

I bet you really needed to hear that about me didn’t you? Well, it is a part of me and it doesn’t seem to keep me from enjoying the things I do. I think the one major lesson that I have learned from all this is that everyone has their own issues and no one is perfect. So before you judge me, find out about me.

Anyway, I am sure I will be back later for more…..I have blogging on the brain it seems…..LOL